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Jun 262012

I was so deeply moved by my time with teddybearslave today. This blog post is likely to be poorly structured at best, and completely incomprehensible at worst, but I need to get my tumble of thoughts out of my brain into some place where I can see them again and remember what I feel like right this moment. I’m so cautious interpersonally, in some ways. It’s a crazy statement from someone whose husband’s girlfriend lives with us, who has an in-person lover locally and another long-distance. I can see that. And yet, on Friday night, when I tagged in to substitute in a play scene with my husband and another local couple, I stopped myself from kissing her, taking off my clothing, licking her, blowing [read more...]

Summer Solstice Kaboom

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Jun 232012

I wrote to my lover yesterday, “So apparently I’m having a little explosion of energy at the moment. Happy Summer Solstice… Here’s a potential new lover and a potential new submissive. Kaboom.” The rest of this blog post is the Galiana-length version of that unusually-well-summarized paragraph. Although I’m not primarily pagan, I do enjoy recognizing seasonal celebrations, and taking the opportunity to examine my life and its cyclical patterns. Summer Solstice is a time to remember the tending and waiting and watering of prior seasons, and to celebrate new growth. I think it’s obvious from my recent upward trend of blogging volume that I’m feeling a bit better than I was March-May. I worked hard to heal my back from its injury, which is finally [read more...]

Talking About You

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Nov 192011

I had a fun afternoon yesterday with a cross-dressing, dildo-sucking slut of a caller. Just before I got online with him, I was talking to a new potential local lover, and I said, “I have to go now. I get to see a pretty sissy boy dressed up and sucking a giant dildo!” and his response was, “Wow. I think I’d like to watch that!” I didn’t think much of it, because duh, of course he would – it’s super fun! But near the end of the call, I mentioned the exchange to my caller (who… seriously… can shove a thick long cock down his throat, even it’s anchored to his desk and he’s wearing a collar — it’s a choke-inducing combination at that angle [read more...]