Groggy Warning

 honesty, limits  No Responses »
Jun 302011
 

I have a new pattern of grogginess: midnight to noon. I try to counteract with caffeine, and sometimes that helps, but most days, the deeper I am in the midnight-to-noon time frame, the more I behave and sound like I live in California and have a medical marijuana prescription. The odd thing is, it doesn’t necessarily mean I’m sleepy. I can be wide awake and groggy, which is occasionally annoying, but usually it’s more dreamy and relaxing for me as long as I’m not trying to problem-solve or intellectually analyze anything. My groggies have often been amusing to others who have witnessed it. Last night, between about 8:30 pm and midnight, I was having a lovely time with a series of callers, when the start [read more...]

Safe Check In

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Jun 272011
 

I’ve registered at Safe Check In (http://www.safecheckin.com), a site that is providing a service I had imagined a few years ago (but of course never built, and now someone else is making money off the idea instead of me… good for them for not being lazy like I am). The concept is that I give them information about me which would be helpful if I needed to be investigated as missing, including a recent picture, the make/model/color/plates of my car, and contact information for my husband and mom and sister. Then, each time I leave the house, I check out with specific details for the outing: what I’m wearing, the route I expect to take, and who I am meeting. If I do not check [read more...]

Adjustments

 honesty, issues, limits, vertigo  No Responses »
Jun 262011
 

I took a while off from blogging (several of you dropped me a note to ask if I was okay – thank you!) for a few reasons, which can be summarized in this statement: I had a bit of an adjustment disorder (the wikipedia article is pretty good for explanation) In the two months before Feb 15, we knew that we might need to move, and that my husband might need to find a different job. In the three months between Feb 15 and June 15: we found out we would need to move (adjustment to new home) we moved – not just into a new home, but from Austin to Houston, which was somewhat unexpected (adjustment to new city) I had to figure out [read more...]

New Lover Warning Labels

 honesty, limits, my lovers, slut, whore  No Responses »
Jun 262011
 

I should have the following warning labels attached to me when meeting with new lovers in person for the first time: I tend to avoid looking directly into people’s eyes for more than just a brief moment at a time because it makes me dizzy faster (eyes are wiggly) Although I go limp and submissive when some people get all rough and tough and toppy with me, other people inspire giggles when they attempt to be growly I need to take a break about once an hour; thankfully, I’ve never been with a lover who can go for longer than an hour straight with no break, either, even without vertigo If you are in from out of town with no rental car, and I am [read more...]

Happy

 love, vertigo  2 Responses »
Jun 012011
 

A long-time caller, one of my very first, and a good friend, wrote to me, with a subject line of, “Happy”. He opened the email by saying “I was reading your blog and I read about your new medicine. I smiled a lot. I’m still smiling. I’m incredibly happy for you.” What followed was a long email, with fun pictures embedded, detailing some wonderful days he has had recently, and some moments that had given him great pleasure: treasured times with loved ones and new friends. He’s a fantastic storyteller, so it was a delight to read, and I felt honored that he had shared his private moments with me. He closed it with, “Still, none of that compared to the joy I felt when [read more...]